A Month Back

Since being back in the States life has been a wild ride. I took a leap of faith and went to Colorado Springs with no place to live and no job lined up. Prior to moving here I spent a week with family back home in Florida and prepared to leave. The first night of being in Colorado Springs I spent the night at the airport. The next morning I took a bus to a coffee shop, to put things in storage and went to the homeless shelter. I spent only a week and a half there. In two weeks with no job and no place to live (with my own room) I was blessed with two jobs and a place to live with a landlord who was willing to be flexible in payment. This past Thursday morning I only had $2 left in my name until I got paid. Of course most of it went to me staying where I’m at now. I work at Chick-fil-A and temporarily at Amazon. I’ll be quitting Amazon this coming week as they leave valuable information out of their job descriptions and put products over people, alongside providing false information.

I’ve been seeing the Lord’s hand in so many things. The first full day of being in Colorado someone felt led to hand me a track to their church. I took it and went on Sunday. I’m still on the hunt for a church home however. I’ve been blessed with getting rides home from work. I’ll probably eventually buy a bike as Lyft and Uber going home is terribly expensive (way over $40 just to go 7 miles, I just checked before posting this to see and it was over $60 to go from work to home). But it’s only $20 to get to work. I was blessed to not have anything stolen while I was staying at the shelter. I was blessed with housemates who had knowledge on services that provide free food and offer up to $100 in credit at a thrift store (it drastically helped me this past week- lots of peanut butter and bread filled me up this past week). I’ve also noticed so many people are moving to the Springs which is my assumption and belief that a huge revival is going to take place here where lives will be saved and come to accept Christ into their lives.

Since being back in the States I’ve also had a rough time being back. Even though I know God has called me to Colorado currently, my heart also longs to be back overseas and with my squad again and everyone I met along the way. I miss everyone so much. At Amazon I put away decorative cotton balls to get shipped to someone and I teared up because it reminded me of helping autistic children in Ukraine. A few of us decorated one of the rooms to have a sensory wall for the children and it included the cotton balls. I have teared up other times, this one has happened most recently so I remember it well. I also broke down crying at the shelter wondering why I was here a few times. Despite my doubts at the shelter I still knew I’m here for a reason. I’m honestly still trying to see the full picture and understand. I’m getting glimpses here and there. Please keep me in your prayers. Please pray that I find a church home with a good community, that I eventually get revealed the full picture of why I’m here and that I will just keep pressing on in my faith and build my relationship with the Lord.