A few days ago I attended a funeral of a family who lost two family member in the span of less than a month. Of course because of how the message of me going was relayed to me the night before and being frustrated on top of it from trash sitting inside for an entire day I didn't want to go. I did want to attend at first but then the enemy attacked me causing me to not want to go. However, it may sound odd if you aren't a Christian but I felt like I was supposed to be there. Listening to the pastor give the eulogy and hearing the family sing a song of praise to God despite being in a state of true mourning really showed me a lot.

It showed me I have continued growth to do. It also helped remind me of the Scripture where it says to mourn with those who mourn and rejoice with those who rejoice (Romans 12:15). I also didn't realize until later but in that moment it was a kaleidoscope moment. I say this because a kaleidoscope looks messy with all the circles but it's also beautiful. I state this because yes the funeral was messy in the sense of that I could feel the true mourning of the husband and I believe it was the daughter as they grieved. I cried with them and my heart was heavy with them as they mourned and leaned against the casket. But I also witnessed the beauty within it. I witnessed how much of an impact the wife who passed away had made. The family at the funeral was small but there were also friends of hers who were there. I was able to witness the impact she made despite not getting the chance to even having the privilege to meet her.

I also witnessed the kaleidoscope moment in another manner. Despite being at a graveyard for someone who had passed away I also witnessed life in beautiful moments. Like a little puppy playing around loving all the love and affection it was getting. Like getting shown hospitality by the people working at the gravesite. Them giving us Turkish tea as our ride was taking home the family that was mourning their loved one. This will probably be the new word I use for messy or chaotic but beautiful situations from now on because indeed life is sometimes like a kaleidoscope. It is also somewhat poetic that team abundance and team kaleidoscope were both there for the family that day. Messy but beautiful situations with an abundance of life giving moments.